Anonymous asked: Just making sure, sorry if this is really stupid(which i know it is) you dyed your hair?
Yes I have a few times!!! Usually I just do it to augment the way I’m feeling at a certain moment…or to signify a starting point for something new. Also I just get bored with my physical appearance quite often. I dyed it black last night on impulse & I am looking like a dumb idiot once again. It’ll prob be burgundy in the summer. Who knows who cares
Anonymous asked: i want to die and im sick of people saying it will get better because ive been waiting and nothings gotten better and nothings changed and im just tired of living
U don’t just wait for things to get better!!! That sounds miserable. U have to actively take steps & make changes in your life if you want to see a difference. I mean…yes, there is always the chance of something unexpected & incredible happening that is beyond your control…but u can’t rely on that. However, that’s the cool part about life, something great could happen at anytime. Maybe it’s a small chance, but if you aren’t alive, there is a 0% chance. I’ve had so many things happen to me that 5 years ago I would have never conceived to be possible. In the meantime, work towards getting better. Find ways that help for you in particular!!! A lot of methods don’t work for certain ppl, but you just have to keep trying & experimenting. Some things that help me are: talking to friends, writing, creating something, staying busy, exploring, freestyle rapping, taking photos, trying new things, going to shows, eating an entire bag of trail mix, pacing, listening to cassette tapes, listening to music in general, going to parks when it’s warm, going anywhere when it’s raining, skateboarding, riding a bike, going to baseball or football field at night, playing basketball, ect ect ect. Those r all very simple things and there are probably 1000 others that I didn’t list. Just find cool fun things that make u personally feel good & try to do a few of them each day. They may all be different than mine who knows. Don’t look for excuses or talk urself out of doing everything. If you’re stuck in the same thought pattern that “nothing will get better” then u might not notice when it does. Maybe it already has. Maybe there are tons of good aspects that u are overlooking. Literaly just persevering is important too. School will end, jobs will end, there r awful ppl that u will never have to see again after a certain point. The more painful situations u experience & the more u learn…the easier things will get. Ur life will never be perfect or magically rid of all problems. You just get better at dealing with them. I am tired of living & empty sometimes too. Maybe 50% of the time. But half of the time, my mind is a lot clearer & I am scared of dying, I want to treasure every single second I have. I guess it’s all weird. I am thinking more lately that I am probably not qualified to give advice. Hopefully this helps you in some way though. The most general & important advice is just to keep going on & keep trying & eventually u will reach a point where everything makes more sense. Good luck my friend